Narrow-mindedness...I suffer from it...I won't deny it. I am not informed about the financial crisis in the country, I'm too busy thinking about how to save money for tuition and balancing my own checkbook. I don't focus on other lives enough because I am to busy going to my job, then home to study for my math class/fall asleep/run errands alone/go to the meetings and activities I have to go to. I don't like living like this. I'll admit that sometimes I wish I lived with a family or had more constant companionship just for the sake of getting out of my own head more often. I started this blog to share an experience. Back ground knowledge facts: 1) In the religion I attempt to practice, there is a meeting for young adults in the middle of the week and it's called institute. 2) Also, when I was a kid I wanted to grow up I wanted to be a mommy (and still do). I have since begun to pursue other things like the next best thing as I get my education in teaching but generally, the idea of being a wife and mother has occupied a great many of my spare thoughts during my adult years (for good or ill, still true). Story...last summer I was in a relationship, however short it was, it was a relationship...and that was new and fun. I found myself in this institute class with the wonderful kid I was dating and had the strangest, best, most out of self experience I'd had in a long time and have maybe had since. Those things spoken about in the institute class, things like faith, hope, patience, anything speaking to the mortal experience of progress and change and waiting through the bad and being excited about the good suddenly applied to everything but the all-encompassing thoughts of marriage and children. Those are great things to be concerned with but, for the time, a relationship was in hand and that aspect of my life was not a worry! It was so refreshing. There is life outside of my/our little bubble of concern. One day something that has concerned you for a what seems like forever will suddenly not exist any more and there will be a new (for a moment refreshing) set of concerns. The object of remembering and sharing this experience is an attempt to promote the ability and awareness of the world outside of my/our little space in it. So, I listen to NPR and the more conservative KSL. I sidewalk chalk a friend's doorstep. I join a volleyball team. And I do my math homework and make my lunch before I go to my job. I also work out so that in my attempt to be well rounded, I don't just become round...haha! Here's to removing the blinders (please don't actually think to hard about the purpose of blinders for a horse...there is a purpose and it makes sense but it does not apply to this analogy).
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Blinders
Narrow-mindedness...I suffer from it...I won't deny it. I am not informed about the financial crisis in the country, I'm too busy thinking about how to save money for tuition and balancing my own checkbook. I don't focus on other lives enough because I am to busy going to my job, then home to study for my math class/fall asleep/run errands alone/go to the meetings and activities I have to go to. I don't like living like this. I'll admit that sometimes I wish I lived with a family or had more constant companionship just for the sake of getting out of my own head more often. I started this blog to share an experience. Back ground knowledge facts: 1) In the religion I attempt to practice, there is a meeting for young adults in the middle of the week and it's called institute. 2) Also, when I was a kid I wanted to grow up I wanted to be a mommy (and still do). I have since begun to pursue other things like the next best thing as I get my education in teaching but generally, the idea of being a wife and mother has occupied a great many of my spare thoughts during my adult years (for good or ill, still true). Story...last summer I was in a relationship, however short it was, it was a relationship...and that was new and fun. I found myself in this institute class with the wonderful kid I was dating and had the strangest, best, most out of self experience I'd had in a long time and have maybe had since. Those things spoken about in the institute class, things like faith, hope, patience, anything speaking to the mortal experience of progress and change and waiting through the bad and being excited about the good suddenly applied to everything but the all-encompassing thoughts of marriage and children. Those are great things to be concerned with but, for the time, a relationship was in hand and that aspect of my life was not a worry! It was so refreshing. There is life outside of my/our little bubble of concern. One day something that has concerned you for a what seems like forever will suddenly not exist any more and there will be a new (for a moment refreshing) set of concerns. The object of remembering and sharing this experience is an attempt to promote the ability and awareness of the world outside of my/our little space in it. So, I listen to NPR and the more conservative KSL. I sidewalk chalk a friend's doorstep. I join a volleyball team. And I do my math homework and make my lunch before I go to my job. I also work out so that in my attempt to be well rounded, I don't just become round...haha! Here's to removing the blinders (please don't actually think to hard about the purpose of blinders for a horse...there is a purpose and it makes sense but it does not apply to this analogy).
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